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Owen was supposedly deathly allergic to cats.
When he was seven, his stepmother locked him in an unheated tool shed with a litter of feral strays. By the time someone found him, he was covered in violent red welts and bloody scratches, gasping for air in the back of an ambulance.
Ever since, he claimed he couldn't stand anything associated with them. The mere scent of cat hair made his skin crawl.
Yet I had Pumpkin. A sweet, six-year-old ginger tabby my mother had given me right before she died. Pumpkin wasn't just a pet; he was the last living piece of my family.
Once, a single orange hair clung to my sleeve. Owen refused to touch me for an entire week, demanding I keep my distance from the cat.
My best friend, Kendall, took his side: "Don't be selfish, Elise. Are you really going to jeopardize your relationship with a good man over a common street cat?"
Crushed by guilt, I leased a separate studio apartment across town just to house Pumpkin. I visited him every day, tearing myself in two between the man I loved and the cat I had promised to protect.
Then came the night of the storm.
At three in the morning, Pumpkin went into acute heart failure. The streets were flooding, and every ride-share app showed zero drivers available. Panic-stricken, I called Owen, sobbing into the receiver.
"Owen, please... I need your car. I promise I'll keep him zipped inside the carrier the entire ride—"
"I'm sorry, Ellie," he cut in smoothly. "I'm swamped at the office with Kendall. Besides, you know my trauma. Just knowing there's a cat in the backseat would make it impossible for me to drive."
I dialed Kendall next—she had worked as a vet tech for years. The line rang straight to voicemail.
Desperate, I wrapped Pumpkin in a towel, tucked him beneath my rain jacket, and ran into the torrential downpour. Water whipped against my face. My lungs burned. I ran four miles through the flooding streets to the 24-hour emergency animal hospital.
I was too late.
By the time I reached the clinic, the heartbeat beneath my palm had already fluttered and gone still. Pumpkin's small, warm body was turning stiff and cold in the rain.
And right there, under the bright awning of the clinic's glass entrance, I saw Owen and Kendall.
Owen was cradling an armful of filthy, mewing stray kittens against his chest.
"Thank you so much, Kendall, Owen," a young college girl said, looking up at him with wide, dewy eyes. "I know how busy you both are. I can't believe you came out in this weather to help with our rescue drive."
Owen's forearms were inflamed with fresh red hives and blooming scratch marks, but he didn't seem to care at all. He was smiling, gently applying flea treatment to a shivering tabby with tender, practiced ease.
"As long as it helps you save them, Daisy," he murmured, his voice softer than I had ever heard it.
Beside him, Kendall laughed knowingly. "Well, what else was he supposed to do? The second you called him crying, his heart broke in half."
The kittens purred in the humid night air.
In my arms, Pumpkin was lifeless.
It turned out Owen had never hated cats.
He just didn't love me.
And right then, standing in the storm, I decided to let him go.
...
On my phone screen, the last text exchange with Kendall sat frozen from an hour ago.
"Kendall, you're at the office with Owen, right? Have you seen him? Pumpkin is sick, he's barely breathing, and Owen isn't answering."
Her reply had been blunt:
"We're in back-to-back crunch meetings, Ellie. Stop being so paranoid. Is an alley cat really worth making a scene over?"
Now, the two people who claimed to be buried under urgent corporate deadlines were standing by a brightly lit vet counter, playing the role of benevolent saviors.
I stood outside the glass door in soaked flannel pajamas and dripping slippers, shaking violently from the cold.
Kendall spooned wet food into a bowl, tossing a teasing grin at the girl beside them. "Daisy, only you could get the CEO of a tech company to run through a storm for a box of strays. I've watched you two dance around each other for two years now. When you finally tie the knot, you better make me your maid of honor."
Daisy's cheeks flushed pink.
Suddenly, her eyes lit up. "Owen, look! One of them is a little seal-point kitten. I want to take her home."
Owen picked up the tiny kitten without hesitation. Sharp little claws instantly shredded the fabric of his tailored dress shirt.
He didn't flinch. Instead, he leaned down and pressed a soft, indulgent kiss to the crown of Daisy's head.
"Whatever you want, Daisy. You have the kindest soul." He smiled, an open, effortless expression I hadn't seen on his face in years. "Don't worry. I'll take her back to my place tonight. I'll scoop the litter, buy the food, and make sure our little girl is taken care of."
There wasn't a trace of hesitation in his voice.
The man with severe allergies and clinical germaphobia was happily offering to scoop litter boxes for the woman he loved.
That woman just wasn't me.
A wave of suffocating regret crashed over me. I had starved Pumpkin of affection for three years, all to cater to Owen's delicate sensitivities. Cats have such short lives. How could I have locked him away in that empty apartment, leaving him to spend his days staring at an automated feeder and crying into the security camera whenever he heard my voice?
Pumpkin had been my mother's dying gift.
Six years ago, from a sterile hospice bed, Mom had stroked my hair with trembling, papery fingers. "Our Ellie has always loved cats. When I'm gone, let this little guy keep you company in my place."
It had poured rain the night my mother died.
And now, six years later, in another relentless storm, I had lost Pumpkin. I had lost the man I thought I would marry. And I had lost my oldest friend.
Tears spilled over my cheeks, hot and silent against the freezing rainwater.
I carefully placed Pumpkin back into the carrier, zipped it shut, and pushed open the heavy glass door.
The chime above the entrance rang out.
Owen and Kendall turned at the same time. Their faces drained of color in identical flashes of panic.
"Ellie? What... what are you doing here so late?"
Owen seemed to have completely forgotten about the frantic phone call I had made just an hour prior. Instinctively, he shifted his body, stepping in front of Daisy and the kittens as if shielding them from an intruder.
I stared at his hives, at his torn shirt, at the kitten hair dusting his collar.
"Owen," I said, my voice dead and hollow. "I didn't realize you loved cats so much. When did you become a volunteer rescuer? Braving storms at three in the morning to catch strays?"
Owen's jaw tightened. He lowered his voice, stepping forward. "Ellie, let me explain—"
"It's true, though!" Daisy interrupted cheerfully. She stepped out from behind him, her doe-like eyes shining with genuine admiration. "He's the most devoted animal lover I've ever met! For the past two years, he hasn't missed a single shelter drive. He even spent last New Year's Eve in a freezing alley helping me rescue a trapped litter!"
"Last New Year's Eve."
Owen had taken an "urgent client call" at eight in the evening, grabbed his cashmere overcoat, and rushed out the door. The apartment had been so terribly quiet that night. When I texted him, asking if I could drive over to the studio to spend the holiday with Pumpkin, he had replied instantly:
"Ellie, you know I can't breathe around you if you smell like that dirty animal. It's New Year's—you wouldn't leave your man hanging, would you? [pout emoji]"
So I had sat alone in the dark, watching the countdown on TV, waiting for him over a plate of cold takeout.
Daisy was still chattering away, completely oblivious. "And you know what? All the gourmet canned food he buys for our shelter is top-tier organic. He did so much research on feline nutrition!"
A memory struck me like a physical blow.
A few months ago, Owen had casually asked me which cat food brands were the healthiest. I had been so touched, thinking he was finally trying to accept Pumpkin. I had taken a video of Pumpkin sitting on his hind legs, paws together in a cute begging pose. "Say thank you to daddy, Pumpkin!"
The video file sat unviewed in our chat history.
The premium food never arrived at my door.
He had bought it for her.
Daisy blinked, looking between Owen and me. "Wait... do you two know each other?"
"Yes," I started, "I'm his—"
"We were classmates," Kendall cut in loudly, grabbing my wrist with bruising force and shooting me a frantic, warning look. "All three of us went to school together. I'm going to give her a ride home, Daisy. You two finish up here."
Owen looked at me with raw, pleading eyes, silently begging me not to make a scene.
The sheer absurdity of it drained every ounce of fight out of me. I looked at them, and for the first time in five years, I felt entirely numb.
I pulled my arm from Kendall's grip and turned toward the exit.
"Ellie, wait! It's not what you think!" Kendall chased after me into the rain, out of breath.
I stopped under the streetlight, turning to look at the girl who had been my best friend since elementary school. "Why are you helping him lie to me? Why are you covering for a mistress?"
"Daisy is not a mistress!" Kendall snapped, her voice rising in defensive anger. "Her parents and Owen's family went back decades before her dad's business went under! She lost both her parents, she clawed her way through college on scholarships alone—a trust-fund princess like you could never understand what she's been through!"
Kendall took a sharp breath, her eyes blazing. "Technically, their families promised them to each other when they were children. If anyone got in the way, Ellie, it was you. She is pure, she's sweet, and she depends on us. I won't let you drag her into your drama."
I clutched the heavy pet carrier against my chest, staring at her in sheer disbelief.
"And what about me, Kendall?"
Kendall's expression softened into something patronizing. She reached out, brushing a wet strand of hair from my forehead, and draped her dry cardigan over my soaked shoulders.
"Owen is good to you, Ellie. He provides for you. In the real world, you can't be this uncompromising."
I wanted to remind her of eighth grade. I wanted to remind her of the girls who had cornered her behind the bleachers, and how I had thrown myself into the middle of the circle, taking the hits until they backed off, while everyone else told her to just keep her head down.
I had always been uncompromising. That was the only reason she had survived middle school.
I shrugged her cardigan off, letting it fall onto the wet asphalt.
"Never mind," I said quietly. "I don't have a best friend anymore."
The rain showed no sign of stopping.
I called an after-hours pet cremation service and dropped Pumpkin off at their facility so he wouldn't spend another second in the cold. Then, like a ghost haunting its own life, I walked the empty streets back to Owen's penthouse.
Sitting on the edge of the bed, I opened Instagram and searched Daisy's handle.
Her account was two years old. It was a visual diary of stray cat rescues—and Owen was in almost every single photo.
Owen beneath an overpass at two in the morning. Owen kneeling in a dusty underground parking garage. Owen holding a flashlight behind a dumpster.
And under every post, Kendall had left glowing comments: "Literal soulmates! The sweetest, most selfless couple ever."
The most recent reel showed Owen's broad back as he loaded crates into his trunk. The caption read: "Huge shoutout to Owen for pushing through his severe asthma and allergies to save these babies with me! And thank you for the $50,000 donation to our shelter!"
The comments were filled with heart emojis: "He's not doing that for the cats, girl, he's doing that for you!"
Tears fell onto my phone screen, blurring the text.
I locked the phone, booked a one-way ticket, and texted my aunt in Zurich.
"Aunt Clara, is that opening at your photography agency still available?"
Twenty minutes later, the electronic lock on the front door beeped.
Owen walked in. The moment his eyes landed on me, sitting soaked on the hardwood floor, his eyes turned bloodshot.
He dropped to his knees in front of me, reaching out cautiously to take my hands.
"Ellie, please, listen to me. I swear on my life, nothing physical happened between us. I just... I pity her. She's all alone in this city, running around saving animals, working herself to the bone. She needed someone to look out for her, and I couldn't just walk away..."
"Really?" I let out a dry, cracked laugh. "There are millions of lonely people in this city, Owen. How come you aren't playing savior to all of them?"
Owen went pale.
A heavy silence settled over the room. He stood up, went to the kitchen, and came back with a steaming mug of ginger tea, just as he used to do whenever I was sick.
"Drink this, Ellie. Don't be mad at me. Your skin is freezing—you're going to catch pneumonia." He knelt down again, lifting my bare, ice-cold feet and tucking them against his chest inside his shirt. "I messed up. Yell at me, hit me, do whatever you want. But take care of your body. You know how hard we worked to get your health back."
A wave of bitter nostalgia washed over me.
When we first met, I had been wasting away from grief after my mother's funeral. I had severe gastritis, chronic migraines, and debilitating insomnia. Owen had cooked every meal from scratch, researched homeopathic remedies, and stayed awake rubbing my temples until I finally drifted off. I had gained weight; he had lost ten pounds taking care of me.
I hadn't realized that the moment I was healed, he would go looking for another broken girl to rescue.
The smell of wet cat fur and shelter disinfectant clung heavily to his sweater. It made my stomach churn.
I pulled my feet back and pushed him away.
"Owen. We're done. Let's break up."
He froze, staring up at me in absolute shock. "Ellie... we're getting married in three months."
"I don't care."
"Is this because I couldn't drive you to the vet tonight?" His voice cracked with defensive frustration. "Because of a cat? Are you really throwing away five years over an animal?"
"Pumpkin is dead," I said evenly.
The words hung in the quiet room, cold and final.
"You asked why I was at that clinic tonight. I was there because I carried Pumpkin four miles through a storm while his heart was stopping. Because my boyfriend—who claimed he would suffocate if a cat was in his car—was too busy rescuing strays for another woman."
I looked directly into his eyes. "You didn't care that he was dying, Owen. Because he was my cat, not Daisy's."
Every word died in Owen's throat. His mouth opened slightly, but no sound came out. He couldn't hold my gaze.
"Ellie... I didn't know..."
I turned my head away, unwilling to hear the rest.
By sunrise, I was at the pet memorial chapel.
The door opened behind me, and Owen walked in, his head bowed, his tailored suit rumpled. "Ellie... let me say goodbye to him. Please."
I didn't answer him.
Pumpkin lay peacefully in a tiny wicker basket lined with white fleece, surrounded by his favorite catnip mice and dried salmon treats. I leaned over the basket, my shoulders shaking as silent tears soaked into the blanket.
Suddenly, the chapel doors swung open with a loud clatter.
"Miss, you can't go in there! There's a private service—"
Daisy pushed past the attendant, out of breath and frantic. "Owen! Kendall said you'd be here! Thank god I found you!"
She rushed toward us, tears welling in her eyes. "You weren't answering your phone. The kitten we adopted last night—she's having a severe stress reaction! She won't eat, she's shaking, and I don't know what to do. Please, you have to come look at her..."
An immediate flicker of panic crossed Owen's face. "What happened? Didn't she drink the formula last night? I—" He caught himself, glancing at me with deep hesitation.
Daisy seemed to realize what was happening. She lunged forward, grabbing my forearm tightly.
"Miss Elise, please! Keeping Owen here won't bring your cat back to life, but he can help save our kitten! If you're upset, we can buy you the most expensive purebred pedigree cat you want to make up for it, okay?"
"Let go of me," I whispered.
"Please, just let him come with me—"
I yanked my arm back. Daisy stumbled backward, losing her balance, and knocked heavily into the display pedestal.
"Crash."
The wicker basket flipped. Pumpkin's body fell onto the cold tile floor. The dried treats and catnip toys scattered everywhere in a chaotic mess.
The last thread of my sanity snapped.
I lunged forward and shoved Daisy to the floor, screaming with a rage I didn't know I possessed.
"Get the hell out! Can't you see we're having a memorial? What the hell does your kitten's appetite have to do with me? Are you insane? Get out!"
"Stop it! That's enough!"
Owen threw himself in front of Daisy, lunging forward, and his open palm struck my cheek with a deafening "crack".
My head snapped to the side. The room went dead silent.
The sharp, stinging pain bloomed across my cheekbone.
"Elise, what the hell is wrong with you?" Owen glared at me, his chest heaving, shielding the trembling girl behind him. "Why are you taking your anger out on a kid? Your cat is already dead! I apologized, and she offered to replace it with a better one. What more do you want from us?"
Without waiting for an answer, he grabbed Daisy's hand and pulled her out of the chapel.
I stood frozen for a long moment. Then, slowly, I knelt down on the hard floor, gathered the scattered toys, and lifted Pumpkin's small, stiff body back into the basket.
I saw the ceremony through to the end, entirely alone.
Afterward, I packed three suitcases at the apartment, drove over to the studio where Pumpkin had lived, and sat on the floor among his scratching posts.
My phone rang. It was Aunt Clara from Zurich.
"Ellie, darling," her voice was thick with emotion. "I've been telling you for years to come out here. I hate the thought of you being all alone over there..."
"I'm coming, Aunt Clara," I whispered. "I'll be there next week."
The next morning, my phone buzzed with an incoming photo from Kendall.
A pregnancy test. Two distinct pink lines.
"Daisy is pregnant. We need to talk. Meet us at the rescue shelter."
"In case you're thinking of ignoring me, I already picked up Pumpkin's ashes from the crematorium. Come talk to us, and I'll give them back."
My hands shook so violently I could barely hold the steering wheel.
When I arrived at the shelter's second-floor office, Daisy sat on the sofa, looking pale and fragile, while Kendall hovered over her with a cup of warm milk.
"I'm sorry, Elise," Daisy whispered, tears instantly spilling down her cheeks. "I didn't realize how serious things were between you and Owen. I would never ask him to leave you, but... I don't have anyone left in this world. I really want to keep this baby."
Kendall chimed in, her tone dripping with self-righteous reason: "Ellie, think about Owen for once. This is his flesh and blood. You're still going to be his wife—what's the big deal about letting Daisy keep the baby?"
I stood there, looking at them both, utterly sickened.
Seeing my silence, Daisy suddenly scrambled to her feet, sobbing hysterically. "If you make him abandon us, I might as well jump off this balcony right now!"
She sprinted toward the open terrace doors.
That was the exact moment Owen walked into the room.
"Daisy, no!"
Owen lunged forward, catching Daisy around the waist and pulling her back against his chest, his face pale with terror.
Kendall turned on me, her eyes full of venom. "Elise, how could you be so cruel? Are you trying to murder a pregnant woman?"
In a fit of fury, Kendall grabbed the nearest object off the side table and reared her arm back to throw it at me.
It was a small, engraved wooden box.
Pumpkin's urn.
My breath hitched. "No!" I lunged forward to intercept it.
Owen saw me rushing forward and assumed I was attacking Daisy. With a look of pure fury, he shoved me with all his strength.
"Are you crazy? Stay away from her!"
The impact threw me backward. My lower back slammed violently against the heavy iron terrace railing.
The breath was knocked entirely out of my lungs. A sharp, tearing agony ripped through my lower abdomen, dragging me to my knees. I curled into a ball on the floor, clutching my stomach as a warm, dark red stain slowly bloomed across the fabric of my white linen skirt.
It took several seconds for Owen to register what had happened. When he finally looked down and saw the pool of blood spreading beneath me, his face went paper-white.
"Ellie...?"
He scrambled for his phone, his hands shaking so hard he dropped it twice before dialing 911.
When I opened my eyes again, the harsh smell of antiseptic filled my senses.
Owen was sitting by the hospital bed, his eyes rimmed in red, looking like a shattered man.
"Ellie... I'm so sorry. I panicked, I didn't mean to push you that hard." His voice was hoarse and cracking. "Seeing you like this... it's tearing me apart. Please, forgive me. I promise you, the second Daisy has this baby, I'll pay her off and cut all ties with her forever. Okay?"
Before I could speak, Kendall knocked urgently on the door, poking her head in.
"Owen, Daisy had a panic attack—the doctor says there are signs of a threatened miscarriage. You need to come to the ultrasound room right now."
Owen looked at me with agonizing guilt, but when Kendall called his name again, he stood up and walked out of the room.
Ten minutes later, an OB-GYN walked in holding a clipboard. She looked at me with deep sympathy.
"Ms. Hobart... I'm so sorry. You were approximately five weeks along. Due to the abdominal trauma, we were unable to save the pregnancy."
She paused, looking around the empty room. "Where is your partner? I tried to page him, but he wasn't outside."
I lay against the pillows, staring at the sterile white ceiling.
A baby. I had been pregnant, too.
A dry, bitter tear leaked from the corner of my eye, soaking into the paper sheet beneath my head.
"He's not my partner," I whispered.
The next day, Owen sent dozens of unread messages to my phone.
He said Daisy's condition had stabilized, that she didn't need him anymore, and that he was coming back to take care of me. He sent photos of half a dozen expensive pedigree kittens, asking which one I wanted. He asked if we should push our wedding date up to next month.
He didn't know that I had already signed my discharge papers.
I had already boarded a direct flight to Zurich, and I was never coming back.